Ever have one of those little changes in your life that cause you to see everything you do in a different light? Sean Covey would call it a paridigm shift. I call it a little bit of light.
I know a secret that no one else knows. Even if they do know it’s now no more than a mere guess. I have given no overt and obvious information pertaining to my secret and I am not yet sure if I wish to share it. If I share it I don’t know whom I should share it with and who it would be best to keep it from. The secret is changing everything I do. I can’t concentrate on any task in front of me. Though at one time each of these tasks was engaging, they no longer seem important. In the light of my larger dilemma and development everything seems more clear as mud in the sense of my enlightenment that it’s all just a game and that none of it is real. None of it is as real as the change I am facing at this very moment.
The constant nature of my perpetuating secret forces me to think about it all the time. Everything I say and do and hear is tinted with a slight shade of gray. These things are all gray compared with the colorful change and shift in my life. Colorful or simply made of black and red. Now I can’t decide which it is. It’s so wonderful and my creative side accepts it and colors it right before my eyes. My logical side squelches it and paints it in splatters of black and blood.
Everything I do is no longer as important as this one thing which I must do.
When one is presented with two choices or paths to take, many assume one is the ‘right’ and one is the ‘wrong.’ Choosing the right answer makes you a good person, while choosing the wrong answer makes you a horror and a disgrace. In my case, it seems neither path is correct.
